THE ROMANTIC AND SEXUAL LIVES OF ADULTS WITH INTELLECTUAL DISABILITY THE ROMANTIC AND SEXUAL LIVES OF ADULTS WITH INTELLECTUAL DISABILITY IN ONTARIO, CANADA By ALAN SANTINELE MARTINO, B.A. (Hons.), M.A. A Thesis Submitted to the School of Graduate Studies in Partial Fulfilment of the Requirements for the Degree Doctor of Philosophy McMaster University © Copyright by Alan Santinele Martino, October 2020 Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology ii McMaster University DOCTOR OF PHILOSOPHY (2020) Hamilton, Ontario (Sociology) TITLE: The Romantic and Sexual Lives of Adults with Intellectual Disability in Ontario, Canada AUTHOR: Alan Santinele Martino, B.A. (St. Lawrence University), M.A. (University of Lethbridge) SUPERVISOR: Dr. Melanie Heath COMMITTEE MEMBERS: Dr. Tina Fetner Dr. Ann Fudge Schormans EXTERNAL REVIEWER: Dr. Nancy Fischer NUMBER OF PAGES: v, 184 Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology iii Abstract The intersection of disability and sexuality remains a taboo topic. Along with this taboo, people with intellectual disabilities are rarely afforded the opportunity to share their experiences and desires when it comes to their intimate lives. This research examines the romantic and sexual lives of adults with intellectual disabilities in Ontario, Canada, by putting into conversation theories from the sociology of sexualities and critical disability studies. It uses a sexual fields analytic framework (Green, 2014) to explore the consequences of sexual stratification on the experiences of disabled people. Drawing on semi-structured interviews with 46 adults with intellectual disabilities, this research explores how they are kept out of sexual fields through a series of disabling social processes. It also examines how participants make sense of their gender and sexual identities based on gender habitus acquired in their lives and how they are often confined to “hetero-romantic” forms of sexual expression and traditional gender roles. Finally, this project explores how participants navigate the sexual fields available to them and their strategies for negotiating those fields. This research brings to view previously unexplored sexual fields within the existing sexual fields literature. I discuss what I call intellectual disability sexual fields, spaces exclusively for people with intellectual disabilities, as well as more mainstream sexual fields. Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology iv Dedication To Bruno Santinele Martino, my loving brother and best friend. Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology v Acknowledgements This dissertation means a lot to me and I could not have done it without the commitment, mentorship, and support of many people in my life. I have so many to thank for and not enough space here. First, I would like to express my deepest appreciation to my supervisory committee. Thanks to my supervisor, Dr. Melanie Heath, whose feedback, support, and mentorship were invaluable. I cannot thank you enough for reading my multiple drafts, asking me the hard questions, and being patient with me. I am also extremely grateful to Dr. Tina Fetner. You challenged me and made me a more confident scholar. Thanks for being this kind and committed committee member. I am also deeply indebted to Dr. Ann Fudge Schormans who has been such a incredibly generous mentor to me. I cannot express my gratitude enough and I look forward to continue co-authoring papers with you. Appreciation is also due to Dr. Nancy Fischer for her insightful comments and questions. Thanks to the faculty members at the Department of Sociology at McMaster University, especially Dr. Dorothy Pawluch, Dr. Neil McLaughlin, Dr. Marisa Young, and Dr. Lisa Kaida. Many thanks to Corinne Jehle and Olga Cannon for their warm support and for pushing me to get this done. I am also indebted to my incredible colleagues: Dr. Nicole Andrejek, Dr. Casey Scheibling, Allison Leanage, Sarah May Lindsay, Andrey Kasimov, Leili Yousefi, Dr. Julie Gouweloos, Dr. Rachel Barken, Dr. Becky Casey, Dr. Erica Speakman, Dr. Jessica Braimoh, Dr. Allyson Stokes-McLevey, Dr. John McLevey, Dr. Katie Duong, Dr. Margaret Campbell, and Rod Missaghian. I am also grateful to my ASA colleagues and friends, especially Kyle Shupe, Brittney Miles, Jeremy Brenner-Levoy, Ian Callahan, Dalton Stevens, and Jen Brooks. I am also thankful to all of those who have served as mentors and role models to me at different points in this journey, including Dr. Patrice LeClerc, Dr. Karen Yoshida, Dr. Patty Douglas, Dr. Heather Dillaway, Dr. Brian Grossman, Dr. Kirsty Liddiard, Dr. Allison Carey, and Dr. Laura Mauldin. Thanks also to all the members of the Re:searching for LGBTQ2S+ Health team at the University of Toronto. I wish to acknowledge my family, especially my brother (Bruno), mother (Geni), father (Gerson), and grandmother (Ariadene). Their unconditional love and acceptance have motivated to continue my studies. I am grateful to my partner, Tony, who has supported my career and mental health. Thanks to my dog, Mojo, for his companionship, cuddles, and comfort. Finally, I am appreciative of my friends, including Namrata Bagaria, Anona Kosmack, Jan Van Heuzen, Valérie Auger-Voyer, and Jennifer Reynolds. Thanks to all the self-advocacy groups and organizations that supported this project. Finally, and most importantly, I could not have completed this dissertation without the generosity and openness of the research participants. I appreciate you entrusting me with your sexual stories and I promise to do my best to share your stories with respect and care. Your stories shall be heard! Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 1 Chapter 1: Introduction Introduction During an improvisation exercise in the arts program of a community-based organization in upstate New York, a young man with Down syndrome takes the stage. Accompanied by two other actors with intellectual disabilities, the young man starts his scene acting out an encounter with friends. The conversation goes on until the friends start talking about romantic relationships. The young man then asserts, “Love is natural, we all love.” The rest of the room, consisting of other disabled people, organization staff, and volunteers smile in agreement with the man’s statement. A person in the room is heard saying, “Aww!” Just a few seconds later, as the scene proceeds, the young man raises his hand up in the air and enthusiastically adds, “S.E.X., that’s what we want.” The statement completely changes the vibe in the room, now filled with discomfort and nervous laughter. Not knowing what to do, the lead staff member in the room quickly changes the topic of the conversation by stating, “Isn’t the weather beautiful today?” The scene then ends and we move on to the next group of actors. I was a volunteer in that room when that moment took place. I felt extremely uncomfortable with how this young man’s feelings and sexual desires were simply shut down, treated as being “out of place”. I wondered to myself what message we are sending to this young man and others in the room when we treat sexuality that way. There must be a better way of moving forward that acknowledges the sexuality of disabled people. That particular episode sparked an interest in me to explore the intersection of intellectual disability and sexuality. For this dissertation, I have spoken with many community members with intellectual disabilities who illustrate the multiple barriers that continue to discourage and block disabled people from having an intimate life. Sexuality and sexual expression are important parts of everyday life and, above all, a fundamental human right (Rogers, 2016; Whittle & Butler, 2018). Yet, when it comes to adults with intellectual disabilities, the same expectations do not seem to apply. On the one hand, people with intellectual disabilities are often seen as being vulnerable, child-like, and innocent and thus unable to supposedly make informed decisions regarding their intimate lives (Ditchman et al., 2017; Murphy & Young, 2005; Swango-Wilson, 2009). On the other hand, they are also seen as having problematic, dangerous, and uncontrollable sexualities (Aunos & Feldman, 2002). People with intellectual disabilities have the same romantic and sexual desires as non-disabled people. Their sexualities, however, are shaped by myths that desexualize and stigmatize them. As a social group, they have often been Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 2 denied the opportunity to form romantic and sexual lives (Swango-Wilson, 2009) and have experienced repression and institutionalization to curtail their sexual expression (McDaniels & Fleming, 2016). Furthermore, the intersection of disabilities and sexualities remains a taboo topic in our society (Medina-Rico, López-Ramos, & Quiñonez, 2018). Research on this topic remains under- researched and under-theorized in both the sociology of sexualities and critical disability studies, resulting in significant gaps in our understanding of the sexual and intimate lives of disabled people (Erel et al., 2011; Kattari, 2015; Liddiard, 2011, 2013; McRuer & Mollow, 2012). To address this gap, this dissertation examines the sexual and intimate lives of adults with intellectual disabilities by putting into conversation theories from both the sociology of sexualities and the field of critical disability studies. To accomplish this, I conducted in-depth interviews with 46 adults with intellectual disabilities in Ontario to better understand their experiences, aspirations, challenges, and forms of resistance to maintain sexual lives. The first chapter provides a brief overview of the existing literature on intellectual disability and sexuality. I also introduce the theoretical framework guiding this project. Finally, I share the roadmap of this dissertation. Intellectual Disability and Sexuality The sexual and intimate lives of people with intellectual disabilities have been marked by a history of protectionism, infantilization, and paternalism (Winges- Yanez, 2014), resulting in experiences of sterilization without their consent and sometimes without their knowledge, institutionalization, and sexual repression (McDaniels & Fleming, 2016). People with intellectual disabilities have experienced significant restrictions in terms of exploring their sexuality, accessing and navigating sexual sites and sexual fields, and developing and negotiating their sexual capital compared to non-disabled people. Whether people with intellectual disabilities are perceived to be “potential victims” or are expected to express “unacceptable sexual behaviors”, their sexual rights are commonly restricted (Noonan & Gomez, 2011, p. 177; Gill, 2015). As a whole, the empirical literature looking at the sexual and intimate lives of people with intellectual disabilities has taken a narrow focus (Gill, 2015). Studies have focused on questions of sexual abuse of disabled people (Dickman & Roux, 2005) as well as disabled sexual offenders and their potential risk to other community members (Cantor et al., 2005; Lunsky et al., 2007; Steptoe et al., 2006). Studies have also explored the perceptions and attitudes of a range of social actors regarding the sexualities of people with intellectual disabilities including parents and family members (Dupras & Dionne, 2014; Pownall, Jahoda & Hastings, 2012), support workers (Gilmore & Chambers, 2010; Meaney- Tavares & Gavidia-Payne, 2012), teachers and special educators (Parchomiuk, Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 3 2012; Wilkenfield & Ballan, 2011), university students (Franco, Cardoso, & Neto, 2012), social service providers (Bazzo et al., 2007), and the general public (McConkey & Leavey, 2013; Sankhla & Theodore, 2015). People with intellectual disabilities experience countless barriers to becoming and remaining sexual (Bahner, 2015; Gill, 2015; Kulick & Rydström, 2015; Sanders, 2007; Shakespeare, 2000; Shuttleworth & Sanders, 2010). This includes living arrangements that are not conducive for people with intellectual disabilities to maintain romantic relationships and experience sex (Eastgate et al., 2012; Frawley, 2003; Löfgren-Mårtenson, 2004), a consistent lack of access to (appropriate) sex education (Galea, Butler, & Iacono, 2004; Murphy & O’Callaghan, 2004), workers and family members who may struggle with balancing letting people with intellectual disabilities make their own decisions regarding their sexual lives with their own worries and desire to protect disabled people (Löfgren-Mårtenson, 2004), and the experience of growing up with negative messages about their sexualities and consequently developing negative beliefs and attitudes toward sexuality (Cuskelly & Bryde, 2004). In all, these barriers faced by people with intellectual disabilities have real consequences on their sexualities as “repeated experiences of exclusion, discrimination, and ableism can impact one’s self-confidence and belief in one’s self as a sexual being” (Jungels & Bender, 2015, p. 174; Azzopardi-Lane & Callus, 2014; Bender, 2012; May & Stone, 2010). As Shakespeare (2000) notes, however, disabled people are “systematically devalued and excluded by modern Western societies” (p. 161). One could argue that such devaluation and exclusion can have an impact on the experiences of people with intellectual disabilities, including their willingness and ability to auspiciously “play the field”. This dissertation examines the consequences of disenfranchising the rights of adults with intellectual disabilities to be sexual actors. It explores how such disenfranchisement influences their desire to be active sexual actors within sexual fields, shapes their strategies and choices for sexual partners, and influences their sexual practices, perhaps pushing them to engage in sexual practices that they do not desire but are willing to do in order to satisfy potential sexual partners. Theorists in disability studies have considered the question of whether disabled people should attempt to join mainstream understandings of sexualities or challenge ableist understandings of sexualities and claim their own sexual culture (McRuer & Mollow, 2012; Shakespeare, 2000; Siebers, 2008). For example, Siebers (2008) talks about sexual culture in terms of exploring how sexualities can take a different shape for disabled people and how the sexualities of disabled people may challenge ableist sexual norms. Building on that insight, McRuer (2006) has proposed a queercrip theory that sits at the intersection of disability studies and queer studies. Disabled people have shown both agency and creativity by reconstructing sex and sexualities in ways that go beyond normative Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 4 sexualities (Fritsch et al., 2016; Guter & Killacky, 2004; McRuer & Mollow, 2012). These scholars have not only affirmed how disabled people are “subjects and objects of a multiplicity of erotic desires and practices” (McRuer, 2011, p. 107-108) but have also theorized how disability can “transform sex, creating confusions about ‘what and who is sexy’ and ‘what counts as sex’” (McRuer & Mollow, 2012, p. 32; McRuer, 2011; Shakespeare, 2000; Wilkerson, 2011). This scholarship in disability studies has predominantly focused on the sexual experiences of people with physical impairments, failing to study the experiences of people with intellectual disabilities (Abbott, 2015; Löfgren- Mårtenson, 2013). As Löfgren-Mårtenson (2013) articulates, crip theory often “proceeds from people with physical disabilities, i.e., individuals who have a voice, who can write about their situation, and organize dissent, and who is often found in the international disability rights movement” (p. 420). This dissertation highlights how some people with intellectual disabilities attempt to “crip” sexualities. While most participants strived to achieve normative performances of gender and sexuality when participating in sexual fields, a few participants shared examples of how they attempted to question and transform those very normative constructions. These examples provide new insights in terms of how sexual actors navigate sexual fields. Whereas disability studies has provided limited structural accounts of the ways that sexualities are stratified among people with intellectual disabilities, a sexual fields framework provides a more systematic approach to the study of sexual stratification through its multi-level approach, allowing us to have a more complete understanding of our collective sexual life (Green, 2014). The sexual fields framework, as Taylor (2014) suggests “likely will set the research agenda for the sociological study of sexuality over the next several decades”, making this a promising avenue for theoretical exploration (p. 11). This research is a part of my program of research, which has primarily focused on bridging disability studies and the sociology of sexualities, two fields that have only recently been put into dialogue, in order to theorize and empirically examine the perspectives, challenges, and triumphs of people with intellectual disabilities concerning sexuality. This is an exciting and growing area of research that reflects the complexities and importance of addressing issues in the private sphere. My research also contributes to a growing body of literature bringing an intersectional approach to the sociology of sexualities, focusing on how sexualities intersect with disability. It addresses the need for more research that specifically focuses on sexuality as part of the everyday lives of people with intellectual disabilities and examines how that sexuality is structured within a broader society that marginalizes the sexuality of people with intellectual disabilities. By applying the sexual fields framework to explore the consequences of sexual stratification on the sexual and intimate experiences of people with Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 5 intellectual disabilities, this dissertation contributes to the current literature by highlighting instances of agency or disempowerment experienced by people with intellectual disabilities including their complex strategies to remain sexual. I would like to acknowledge right from the start the concern I have for the ways that disabled people are made vulnerable. Family members and service providers often struggle to find a balance between protecting disabled people from risk and harm and respecting their rights to make their own decisions (including their right to make mistakes) in their intimate lives (Brown & McCann, 2018). We know that people with intellectual disabilities are at a higher risk of experiencing different forms of abuse compared to non-disabled people (Bryne, 2018; Shapiro, 2018). We know that sexual violence among the general population tends to be underreported and underprosecuted (McGell et al., 2002; Myhill & Allen, 2002). This challenge of violence disclosure can be further accentuated for people with intellectual disabilities. Disabled people are more likely to be abused by people providing them care (e.g., caregivers, family members) (McCormack et al., 2005; Sobsey, 2006). This can make some disabled people reluctant to report such instances (Akbas et al., 2009). People with intellectual disabilities are also less likely to be believed when they do disclose and sometimes have to remain living with perpetrators (Shapiro, 2018). In addition, the literature suggests that very few cases are actually addressed. For example, out of 1,400 sexual abuse yearly reports against people with intellectual disabilities in the United Kingdom, typically only six percent make it to court and one percent result in conviction (Bryne, 2018). The challenge, however, is that the focus on risk and harm can also lead to a lack of access to sexuality and intimacy among disabled people. While my research shows that those risks and harm were present in some of the participants’ accounts, in this context of increased risk, however, we should still ask ourselves whether it is right to deny disabled people access to an intimate life as a means for keeping them safe, or if there is perhaps a different path forward for a safe and satisfying sexual life for disabled people. People with intellectual disabilities are entitled to intimate citizenship (Ignagni et al., 2016), which refers to our “rights to choose what we do with our bodies, our feelings, our identities, our relationships, our eroticisms, and our representations” (Plummer, 1995, p. 17). People with intellectual disabilities have also consistently noted their desire to be heard and have their desires respected (Bane et al., 2012; Fitzgerald & Withers, 2013). Theorizing Disabled People’s Sexualities: The Sexual Fields Framework The sexual fields framework has been responsible for a “landmark theoretical turn” within sociology by focusing on sexual stratification as a “particular kind of social order in its own right”, an area for which “sociology, in general, and social theory, more specifically, have paid too little attention” (Green, 2011, p. 246). Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 6 Though not a simple task, the framework brings to view the connection between individual desire and sexual experience on one hand and the collective sexual life as a system of stratification on the other (Green, 2008a, 2011). In their pursuit of sexual partnering, people navigate sexual fields, which “are by their nature arenas of sociality, pleasure seeking, and competition” that are inherently uneven (Green, 2008b, p. 35). “Playing the field” requires that sexual actors understand the structure of the sexual field itself, including who is desirable and where they fit within the field (Green, 2011). Lacking that “feel for the game” can lead to forms of disadvantage that shape sexual actors’ experiences and opportunities for partnering. Sexual capital shapes who is desirable within sexual fields and positions people differently within sexual fields (Craig, 2016; Green, 2008a). Sexual capital should be understood as a person’s attributes, resources, and competencies that create an erotic response in another and provide status to sexual actors within sexual fields (Green, 2014; Leschziner & Green, 2013). Rather than approaching desire as an individual characteristic, the sexual field framework places desire and sexuality as a part of erotic habitus (Craig, 2016), a concept that refers to unconscious dispositions that predispose sexual actors toward particular kinds of sexual practices and partners. These dispositions are tied to larger social structures and hierarchies of desirability that reproduce inequalities (Green, 2008a, 2014). Previous studies using the sexual fields framework have significantly contributed to the sociology of sexualities by empirically demonstrating how desire and desirability are collectively produced (Moon, 2015). This body of literature has illuminated, for instance, new forms of sexual capital (e.g., alien sexual capital, interracial sexual capital; Farrer, 2010), the complex dynamic parameters of desirability and the interactional underpinnings of desires and desirability in sexual fields (Weinberg & Williams, 2014), how sexual fields may produce and/or accommodate desires that are not mainstream (Farrer & Dale, 2014; Weinberg & Williams, 2014), instances that suggest that not all sexual fields are sites of hierarchies and struggles (Hennen, 2014), how sexual actors exchange and convert forms of capital to increase their erotic capital within sexual fields and their chances for partnering (Craig, 2016; Farrer, 2010; Willey, 2010), the ways that social locations like race, gender, ethnicity, and citizenship shape the experiences of sexual actors in sexual fields (Farrer & Dale, 2014; Green, 2008b; Schilt & Windsor, 2014), and the consequences to the psychological and emotional well-being of individuals attempting to maximize their erotic capital (Farrer, 2010; Green, 2008a). This literature has also mapped out sexual circuits – sexual sites that are spread out and where people who may not know each other frequently rub shoulders (Adam & Green, 2014) – and explored the anatomy of particular sexual fields including their unique tiers of desirability and distributions of erotic capital (Green, 2008b, 2014). Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 7 Alternatively, the current literature also has limitations especially when applying the sexual fields framework to the romantic and sexual experiences of people with intellectual disabilities. This dissertation also illuminates how certain aspects of disability trouble and complicate some assumptions in the sexual fields literature. For instance, the existing research on intellectual disability and sexuality suggests that the patterns of romantic and sexual relationships of people with intellectual disabilities are considerably different from that of non-disabled people as questions of when, where, how, and with whom to be sexual are significantly more complex and the choices more restricted for people with intellectual disabilities (Gill, 2015; Kulick & Rydström, 2015; Löfgren- Mårtenson, 2013). The goal of this research is to demonstrate how this dialogue between the sociology of sexualities and critical disability studies can provide a new conceptual vocabulary for theorizing the social forces that structure (and disadvantage) the sexualities of disabled people as well as the embodied experiences and practices of this social group. Bringing Together Disability and Sexual Fields People with intellectual disabilities experience significant restrictions in accessing opportunities for sexual exploration, experimentation, and relationships, which impacts their sexual capital and gender/erotic habitus. When automatically understood as not having sexual and romantic desires, or being child-like, people with intellectual disabilities are presumed to have no need for developing a gender and sexual identity and sexual capital, nor accessing sexual fields. Conversely, if perceived as having a deviant sexuality, people with intellectual disabilities’ sexual capital is one to be contained, discouraged, and restricted. The current sexual fields literature, however, has not taken into account the consequences of such historical marginalization and exclusion on disabled sexual actors within sexual fields. The line separating public and private spaces is often blurred in the lives of people with intellectual disabilities who may live with and receive care from family members, non-family members, and support workers. Due to protectionism, infantilization, and other restrictions, they may also experience a lack of privacy and decision-making power (Gill, 2015; Hollomotz & The Speakup Committee, 2009; Lesseliers & Van Hove, 2002). For some disabled people, regardless of their age, various forms of sexual expression, which are often taken for granted in previous studies using the sexual fields framework, including accessing sexual sites on their own or having casual sex, may be discouraged or prohibited (Löfgren-Mårtenson, 2013). As the sexual fields framework has been mostly used as a “theory of only male sexuality”, more specifically (non-disabled) gay men sexuality (Martin, 2014), it is important to apply the framework to other groups of people (Paik, 2016; Plante, 2015) including disabled people who can bring to view other arenas of sexual organization and help refine the framework’s main sensitizing concepts. Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 8 As Ignagni et al. (2016) notes, we know “little about the spaces [disabled] people may easily access and claim, and how these may shape intimate subjectivities, relations and practice” (p. 132). Thus, it is relevant to explore the mainstream and disability-specific sexual fields that people with intellectual disabilities navigate or aspire to navigate in their pursuit of love, intimacy, and sex. Similar to previous studies drawing on sexual fields, I too found forms of “specialized erotic worlds” (Green, 2008b, p. 27) that disabled people with intellectual disabilities claim and navigate. There have also been a few studies exploring how some people with intellectual disabilities use communication technologies for accessing potential partners (Löfgren-Mårtenson, 2008; Löfgren-Mårtenson, Sorbring, & Molin, 2015). Löfgren-Mårtenson (2008), for instance, found that some people with intellectual disabilities viewed the Internet as a place where they can be “like everybody else”, thus increasing their chances of partnering (p. 125). Some participants have used the Internet and mobile dating applications as sexual fields and, for that reason, it is also important to look at virtual spaces. By thinking about sexual fields – both in terms of physical and online sexual sites – we can better understand the barriers and opportunities for people with intellectual disabilities to access spaces for sexual exploration and encounters as well as how they experience and negotiate these spaces. Furthermore, we have limited knowledge about the dating patterns of people with intellectual disabilities, including how they select their romantic and sexual partners as well as how they make sense of and reflect on their own position as a sexual actor within hierarchies of desirability (Bates et al., 2016). Not surprisingly, though, it has been suggested that people with intellectual disabilities have their own “hierarchy of attraction”, or desirability, when selecting partners (Löfgren-Mårtenson, 2004, p. 203). Therefore, my dissertation contributes to the sociological literature on sexualities by investigating who and what people with intellectual disabilities desire as sexual actors, how they assess their sexual capital, as well as that of others, how they decide whether to pursue certain potential sexual partners, how they develop their own hierarchies of desirability and how they respond to hegemonic hierarchies of desirability, and what strategies they use to increase their chances of partnering. The sexual fields framework helps us to better understand the inequalities, power struggles, challenges, resources, and forms of resistance experienced by disabled people. On a macro level, people with intellectual disabilities are embedded within larger sexual stratification systems. The sexual fields framework points us to the “hegemonic systems of judgment related to desirability” that lead to different probabilities for partnering for individuals and social groups (Green, 2011, p. 246-247). Within these hegemonic systems, sexual actors are stratified Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 9 and granted differential status based on their social location, including age, race, and class (Green, 2011), in addition to disability. At the same time, an analysis of people with intellectual disabilities’ stories of rejections and successes in the pursuit of love and intimacy highlights how they resist or reproduce constructions of sexualities, privileged forms of sexual capital, and hierarchical relations of desirability in their everyday lives. The sexual fields approach allows us to explore what sexual actors desire in a sexual partner and what they need to do to attract and obtain such a partner (Green, 2015). Considering their marginalized sexualities, people with intellectual disabilities often occupy a position of low sexual status, which has a deep impact on their self-confidence as a sexual agent, shaping their willingness to play the field and their agency within sexual encounters (Green, 2014). Research Questions My goal was to better understand the romantic and sexual lives of adults with intellectual disabilities and the social forces shaping those sexualities. More specifically, my research addressed three main interrelated research questions concerning the intimate lives of disabled people: 1. What are some of the systematic barriers that prevent adults with intellectual disabilities from participating in sexual fields? 2. How do people with intellectual disabilities make sense of their gender and sexual identities based on gender habitus acquired in their lives? 3. How do adults with intellectual disabilities navigate the mainstream and specialized sexual fields available to them to increase their chances of intimate partnering? Overview of the Dissertation This dissertation is divided into six chapters. Chapter 1 presents the research topic and questions, introduces the theoretical framework, and highlights the significance of this project. Chapter 2 introduces the methodological considerations that underpin this project and reports on my strategies in terms of recruitment, reflexivity, ethical considerations, interviewing, and the analytic framework. Chapter 3 attends to the particular disabling social processes including infantilization, lack of information, forms of boundary work, and psycho- emotional disablism, which keep people with intellectual disabilities out of sexual fields. Drawing on the notion of sexual access, I address a gap in the existing sexual fields literature in terms of theorizing the experiences of sexual actors who do not participate in those sexual fields, whether by their own choice or, more importantly, by the choice of others in their lives. Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 10 Chapter 4 turns attention to the experiences of participants who have accessed sexual fields, paying particular attention to how they make sense of their gender and sexual identities based on gender habitus acquired in their lives. I highlight how people with intellectual disabilities are often confined to “hetero- romantic” forms of love and traditional ideas around gender identity and gender roles. Many participants had been offered very few options in terms of “doing gender” and were often held accountable to properly performing those expectations. Chapter 5 focuses on how participants navigate and negotiate the sexual fields available to them. This chapter brings to view previously unexplored sexual fields within the existing sexual fields literature. Specifically, I discuss what I call intellectual disability sexual fields, spaces exclusively for people with intellectual disabilities such as group homes and day programs. Additionally, I discuss participants’ experiences negotiating more mainstream virtual and physical sexual fields available to them. Chapter 6 highlights the main contributions of this research, addresses the limitations of this study, discusses potential applications for practice, and proposes directions for future studies. Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 11 Chapter 2: Methodology Introduction This dissertation analyzes qualitative data collected from semi-structured in-depth interviews to better understand the romantic and sexual lives of adults with intellectual disabilities. Qualitative research “seeks to establish the meaning of a phenomenon from the views of participants” (Creswell, 2009, p. 16). Additionally, in-depth interviews are useful for making space for participants to contextually share their experiences and express their perspectives as they make sense of our social world (Boeije, 2010, Ramazanoğlu & Holland, 2002). This approach allowed me to make space for disabled people to share their perspectives and challenges as well as instances of subversions and triumphs concerning romance and intimacy on their own behalf. Through interviews, I explored the challenges and opportunities for people with intellectual disabilities to become and remain sexual, the sexual fields that they navigate or aspire to navigate, how participants make sense of their gendered identities and experiences as sexual actors, how they find and obtain a romantic or sexual partner of their choosing, and the strategies used to claim sexual spaces and increase their chances of partnering. As Bryman and Teevan (2005) appropriately articulate, “Methods are not simply neutral tools; they are linked with how social scientists envision the connection between different viewpoints about the nature of social reality and how it should be examined” (p. 2). This research is grounded on a critical- constructionist framework which understands that there are different versions of ‘truth’ and that they are always partial, locally situated, and fluid (Bloomberg & Volpe, 2012; Guba & Lincoln, 1994). A critical-constructionist framework also suggests that ‘reality’ is always “multiple”, “intangible”, “experientially based”, and “situated” (Guba & Lincoln, 1994, p. 110). In essence, participants shared their views and perspectives as they understood them at the time of the interview. Finally, a critical-constructionist framework understands that these ‘truths’ are embedded within unequal power relations. Thus, it is important to keep in mind how disabled people’s knowledge and views have historically been discredited and underrepresented. My research attempts to highlight some of those power relations and report on how disabled people negotiate them. My ontological and epistemological approaches guided my choice in terms of my research method. In keeping with a critical-constructionist framework, I used in-depth, semi-structured interviews to center the knowledge, voice, and experiences of people with intellectual disabilities. This chapter explains the importance of making space for people with intellectual disabilities to share their experiences and perspectives as meaning makers of their own lives. I also outline the research design, the logistical details of the study, ethics, participant eligibility and recruitment, the interview process, Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 12 and provide a profile of participants. In an effort to be reflexive, I also address my positionality as a researcher, including my “relationship to disability” (O’Toole, 2014). Lastly, I describe my procedures to analyze the findings. Nothing About Us, Without Us In their efforts, the disability rights movement has long advocated for nothing about us, without us (Charlton, 1998). People with intellectual disabilities have highlighted the importance of speaking about their experiences (Fudge Schormans et al., 2011; McDonald et al., 2015) but are commonly seen as not being capable enough to participate in research (Lai, Elliott, & Ouellette-Kuntz, 2006). At one point, for example, I was asked by a member of an ethics review committee whether disabled people were “able to give [me] any good data at all”. Instead, this person suggested, I was “highly encouraged to speak with the parents or support workers” of disabled people instead. The gatekeeping around disabled people is so common that they have generally had fewer opportunities to speak about their experiences and perspectives, especially regarding their romantic and sexual lives (Santinele Martino & Fudge Schormans, 2018). It was extremely important for me to center the voices of people with intellectual disabilities, acknowledging them as agents and meaning makers of their own lives. I am inspired by feminist methodology, which aims to center the experiences and voices of those at the margins (Pole & Lampard, 2002). As Foucault (2003) explains, subjugated knowledge refers to a “whole series of knowledges that have been disqualified as non-conceptual knowledges, as insufficiently elaborated knowledges: naïve knowledges, hierarchically inferior knowledges, knowledges that are below the required level of erudition or scientificity” (p. 7). In this way, my research makes space for people with intellectual disabilities – and their often-subjugated knowledge – allowing them to share their experiences with love and intimacy, challenging the invisibility of their voices and sexualities by contributing to a growing body of literature that is finally listening to people with intellectual disabilities (Rushbrooke, Murray, & Townsend, 2014). When listening to people with intellectual disabilities, their protection was extremely important to me, especially considering precedents of unethical research with this social group (Iacono, 2006; Mcdonald, Kidney, & Patka, 2012). People with intellectual disabilities have a long and painful history of abuse and exploitation, sometimes done by researchers (Fudge Schormans & Sobsey, 2007). Yet, at times, research involving disabled people is seen as simply “too risky” and not “valuable enough to outweigh potential risks” to the extent that researchers – especially junior scholars – are actively discouraged from engaging with this social group (Santinele Martino & Fudge Schormans, 2018, para 3). This is highly problematic as articulated by Santinele Martino and Fudge Schormans: Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 13 It is [also] unethical to assume that people labeled with intellectual disabilities cannot make their own decisions and, though greater care may be needed, people with intellectual disabilities have the right to share their perspectives and "speak" on their own behalf – in their daily lives as well as through their active inclusion in research (para. 1). This project was an opportunity for people with intellectual disabilities to participate in knowledge construction (McDonald, Conroy, Olick, & The Project Ethics Expert Panel, 2016) and help change general community opinions about their sexual rights (Fudge Schormans, 2015). I am a firm believer in the power of sexual stories (Plummer, 1995) and understand that telling stories is an important part of creating new and more diverse sexual cultures (Santinele Martino & Fudge Schormans, forthcoming; Siebers, 2008). By sharing participants’ sexual stories, I hope to advance “disabled people’s political struggles” and help “to eradicate disabling barriers in society” (Barnes, 2008, p. 7). My Relationship to Disability Reflexivity should be an ongoing process that walks with us in every stage of research. As Guillemin and Gillam (2004) note, a reflexive researcher does not only report the “facts” but “actively constructs interpretations (what do I know?), while at the same time questions how those interpretations came about (how do I know what I know?)” (p. 274). This helps develop rigorous research through thoughtful ethical practices. I agree with Liddiard (2013) that reflexivity is a “practice that is central to disability and feminist research” (p. 2). Inspired by O’Toole’s (2013, 2015) call for more open discussions regarding researchers’ relationship to disability, I would like to share my own relationship with disability. My interest in disability studies was inspired by my experience growing up with an older sibling with a physical impairment. His experiences and challenges around sexuality encouraged me to immerse myself in this body of literature to find ways to better support disabled people and their families in this aspect of life. My passion for this research area was emboldened by my volunteer work with disabled people, self-advocacy groups, and community-based organizations. I have also worked alongside incredible critical disability studies scholars as a research assistant and collaborator in a variety of research projects. I count myself lucky to be a part of a supportive network of scholars and activists in Canada and abroad who have challenged, reinforced, and contributed to my understanding of disability as well as my own positionality. I feel a strong sense of commitment to using my privileges to make space for people with intellectual disabilities to share their experiences. At the same time, I understand that reflexive practices are even Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 14 more important for non-disabled researchers considering how “the inherent power relationship between researcher and researched is accentuated by the unequal power relations which exist between disabled people and non-disabled people in the wider world” (Stone & Priestley, 1996, p. 700). Inspired by Patricia Hill Collins’ (2000) work, I have been committed to making this dissertation “intellectually rigorous, well researched, and accessible to more than the select few fortunate enough to receive elite education” (p. viii). I am committed to sharing my research findings with people with intellectual disabilities – both within and outside of academia – and ensuring that this is done in an accessible manner (Dalton & McVilly, 2004; Lewis & Porter, 2004; Liddiard, 2013). I included a section in the consent form where participants could list their interest in receiving a brief research report in plain language and large print at the completion of the research. I have also offered to deliver short presentations about the study results to self-advocacy groups and community- based organizations. Finally, I have also committed to making the final dissertation available at the McMaster University Library and to send participants copies of future publications along with brief summaries in plain language. Research Design Most studies drawing on the sexual fields framework have used an ethnographic approach, focusing on particular sexual fields (e.g., Farrer, 2010, 2011; Farrer & Dale, 2014; Green, 2008b; Weingberg & Williams, 2013). No previous studies have used a sexual fields approach to examine the intimate lives of people with intellectual disabilities and the more specific sexual fields they navigate. My project contributes to the sociologies of disability and sexualities by applying and extending the sexual fields framework to the study of the romantic and sexual experiences of people with intellectual disabilities. It offers a new theoretical vocabulary as well as a multi-level analytical approach to understanding the experiences of this social group which has been commonly desexualized and restricted from forms of sexual expression. For different reasons, I spoke with disabled people instead of other social actors such as family members and support workers for this project. Firstly, this is because more attention has been paid to the views and experiences of other people in disabled people’s lives when it comes to sexuality (Santinele Martino & Fudge Schormans, 2018). Secondly, research sometimes “dilute[s] disabled people’s voices by including their voices only alongside those of non-disabled people” (Liddiard, 2011, p. 82, emphasis added). People with intellectual disabilities can provide rich, insightful snapshots as they make sense of and navigate their everyday lives. Furthermore, this project focused on the experiences of people with intellectual disabilities because they have usually had a different response to their sexual expression and sexual rights compared to people with other disability Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 15 labels (Gill, 2010; Shildrick, 2015). As Gill (2010) writes, “[M]ost, in the disability communities would argue that disabled adults should have unrestricted access to sexuality”, however, when it comes to individuals with intellectual disabilities, they are “seen as special exceptions, deserving a different approach, primarily because of their impairment diagnosis” (p. 210). Additionally, due to misguided ideas around capacity and ability, this social group has “historically been afforded few opportunities to communicate their experiences and desires concerning their personal and intimate lives, including their friendships, parenting, family relationships, or romantic and sexual experiences” (Santinele Martino & Fudge Schormans, 2018, para. 2). In taking this particular focus, my intention has not been to reinforce a hierarchy of impairments (Deal, 2003) but rather to attend to specific experiences and needs of a social group which is not often heard. I recruited adults because gaining access to disabled children and underage youth can be significantly difficult due to gatekeeping, infantilization, and protectionism, especially when it comes to talking about sexuality. These are, of course, important voices that also deserve further attention especially as children and youth experience a critical time in terms of learning about sexuality and developing relationships. At the same time, it is also important to contest a tendency within the disability scholarship to focus on young disabled people (Chivers, 2011; Priestley & Rabiee, 2002) as well as an assumption in the existing sexual fields literature that assumes that chronological adulthood automatically grants sexual actors autonomy to make choices in their intimate lives and access to an array of sexual fields and sexual practices. As my findings highlight, merely being an “adult” (chronologically speaking) may not lead to the “permission” or to opportunities for people with intellectual disabilities to navigate sexual fields. This project used purposive sampling to select participants who met certain criteria (more details in the recruitment guideline section) for inclusion and who had the knowledge and experience necessary to address this project’s research questions (Aurini, Heath, & Howells, 2016; Cresswell & Plano Clark, 2011; Patton, 1990). I strived to recruit people with intellectual disabilities living in different housing arrangements including group homes and assisted living facilities, with family members, and independently. The reason for recruiting participants in different housing arrangements – especially those in more protective and constrained living environments – was to capture important nuances regarding different forms of boundary-work (Lamont & Molnár, 2002) disabled people experience, sexual agency in the lives of disabled people, and ways that their sexual access is shaped. To achieve that, I drew on my existing connections with community-based organizations and self-advocacy groups. Gaining access to disabled people who are more isolated or sheltered is challenging. However, I have built trusting relationships with self-advocates and Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 16 service providers which allowed me to rely on them to reach out to a more diverse group of disabled people. These connections shared information about the study with potential participants who had a choice whether to contact me and participate in the study. A challenge with snowball sampling is that participants may then know one another, creating certain risks in terms of anonymity and confidentiality. To handle that concern, I never disclosed to my connections whether people decided to participate in the study. I also informed participants about risks in participating and that I would not tell others about their research participation. Of course, participants themselves may have chosen to disclose their participation to others in their lives, which was outside of my control. When asked about their current living arrangement, the majority of the 46 participants lived in group homes or assisted living facilities (n=20), while some lived with their intimate partners (n=5), family members (n=12) including parents, siblings, and uncles, and a few live independently (n=9). As can be seen, most participants live either with their families or other people with intellectual disabilities (80 percent), placing most participants in living arrangements where they may have less access to privacy and opportunity to initiate and maintain romantic and sexual relationships. This research primarily draws on in-depth interviews with adults with intellectual disabilities.1 In-depth semi-structured interviews allowed for a detailed exploration of the intimate lives of participants “in their own words and [...] on their own conditions [as] they may express views, give words to their experiences, and describe events and situations” (Boeije, 2010, p. 32; Kvale, 2006). They also grant researchers access to non-observable aspects of people’s lives including their emotions, views, and sexual stories (Brinkmann, 2013; Neuman, 2011). Most importantly, interviews allowed me to elicit narratives, or sexual stories, directly from participants – a format that tends to be the most successful for this social group. The interview guide consisted of questions about their intimate lives including how they had learned about sexuality, the spaces they navigated to meet intimate partners, the barriers and opportunities to having a romantic and sexual life, and their strategies for remaining sexual. It contained different types of questions, including open-ended, exploratory, and probing (Kvale, 1996). In wanting to apply a sexual fields framework to this particular social group, the interview guide was also organized in a way that allowed me to theorize concepts such as erotic habitus, sexual capital, and sexual fields in the context of participants’ lived experiences. As Kvale (1996) notes, interviews are not a “reciprocal interaction of two equal partners” as interviewers usually “defin[e] the situation, introduc[e] the topics of the conversation, and through 1 For the purpose of this study, instead of relying on medical and diagnostic procedures, I included community members who self-identified as having an intellectual disability. Considering the level of stigma unfortunately associated with this disability label, it is highly unlikely that a non- disabled person would opt to associate with the label. Additionally, prior to the interviews, I ensured that participants understood the purpose of the study and the criteria for participation. Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 17 further questions stee[r] the course of the interview” (p. 126). For that reason, participants also had the opportunity to raise other relevant questions and topics that were not previously included in the interview guide. A semi-structured interview approach allowed participants to also shape the interview and allowed me to ask additional questions regarding anticipated topics they raised (Neuman, 2011; Rubin & Rubin, 2005). As a form of reciprocity, I also always asked participants if they had questions about the project or myself to the extent to which I felt comfortable. The benefit of interviews is that they allow us to understand the experiences of people who do not actively participate (either by choice or lack thereof) in sexual fields. Indeed, as my findings demonstrate, many people with intellectual disabilities face countless barriers to accessing a rich array of sexual sites. My work importantly highlights the centrality of considering the question of access to sexual fields – whether people can access or claim sexual spaces and how they enter these spaces in particular, gendered ways – before focusing on certain sexual fields. Thinking about sexual access in this context highlights the experiences of a group of sexual actors who are often out of “the game” (Green, 2014), either by choice or due to restrictions from others in their lives. Additionally, due to more pragmatic reasons, including the challenge of gaining access to social spaces created by and for people with intellectual disabilities as a junior scholar with limited time and funding, interviews were then the best fit for this project. That said, my interview data is complemented by some participant observation conducted in community-based organizations, self-advocacy group meetings, day programs, and group homes which allowed me to gain a more contextualized understanding of the spaces where some people with intellectual disabilities spend a significant amount of their time. The data presented in this dissertation derives from 46 in-depth, semi- structured interviews with adults with intellectual disabilities, generating 990 pages of interview transcripts. It has been noted that “there are no rules” in terms of sample size in qualitative research (Patton, 2002, p. 244). Instead, it is about having “enough data to tell a rich story” (Braun & Clarke, 2013, p. 56). Having conducted 46 in-depth interviews – a significant number in my area of research – gave me ample data to write a rich and complex story. Additionally, noticing reoccurring codes and themes coming through my interviews, I felt comfortable concluding the interview process (Hagaman & Wutich, 2017). These interviews took place between June 2017 and December 2018. In addition, I kept field notes throughout the research process based on my observations and reflections during fieldwork. Recruitment Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 18 The difficulties and complexities involved in recruiting people with intellectual disabilities have been well documented (e.g., Becker et al., 2004; Iacono, 2003; Nicholson, Colyer, & Cooper, 2013). People with intellectual disabilities are commonly assumed to be unable to make their own decisions, including whether to participate in research and “speak” on their own behalf (Nind, 2008; Santinele Martino & Fudge Schormans, 2018). As a result, people with intellectual disabilities have often been excluded from research, provided with fewer opportunities to share their experiences compared to other social actors in their lives (Elderton et al., 2013; Kelly et al., 2009; Lewis & Porter, 2004). Gaining access to people with intellectual disabilities can often involve going through a series of gatekeepers, including family members and service providers, as well as discussing the importance and benefits of the research (Lennox et al., 2005; Nind, 2008). Depending on guardianship arrangements, family members or other legal guardians may also need to provide consent along with the participant’s agreement (Lennox et al., 2005). In this study, all participants were their own legal guardian. This project used a “complex and multi-layered” recruitment strategy (Nicholson, Colyer, & Cooper, 2013, p. 654) to garner participants from four cities: Hamilton, Toronto, Ottawa, and Kingston, Ontario. Participants were recruited through 1) service providers and self-advocacy groups; 2) presentations about the project at self-advocacy group meetings; 3) a local radio show; 4) posted recruitment posters (appendix D) in public places (e.g., grocery stores, libraries, community agency offices, self-advocacy group offices, parent-led groups); 5) posters shared via social media (e.g., Facebook and Twitter); 6) a website with detailed information about the study, and 7) snowball sampling (appendix A, B, C), an approach that allows for accessing “hidden” and “socially stigmatized” social groups (Atkinson & Flint, 2001, para. 2). To facilitate the recruitment process, especially of adults with intellectual disabilities living in more controlled living arrangements, I also asked agency workers and self- advocates to pass on recruitment “postcards” (appendix E) to potential participants. Self-advocates and agency workers are particularly well-positioned in knowing and having some access to people living in more controlled settings. In terms of recruitment, I also took into account some of the recommendations that people with intellectual disabilities themselves have presented to researchers in previous studies (e.g., McDonald, Kidney, & Patka, 2012; Swaine et al., 2011). For instance, all of my recruitment materials were written in an easy-to-read manner (Swaine et al., 2011) and further improved through the paid services of a professional trained in translating documents into plain language. Additionally, I reviewed the recruitment documents with two community members with intellectual disabilities who I had collaborated with in a previous project to further ensure accessibility and clarity. Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 19 At the beginning of this project, I was unable to provide an honorarium to participants. Fortunately, that changed when I secured research funds and followed the advice from self-advocates who noted that a lack of an honorarium would discourage and make the study less accessible for some people to participate. This is unsurprising considering how disabled people in Canada are more likely to be living on a low income and under the poverty line compared to non-disabled people (Council of Canadians with Disabilities, 2017; Ignagni et al., 2016). I ensured to contact participants who had already been interviewed without compensation to verify that they too received compensation for their study participation. Considering how people with intellectual disabilities are sometimes coerced in their everyday lives into partaking in activities that may not be of their choosing (Cameron & Murphy, 2006; Nicholson, Colyer, & Cooper, 2013), it was important for me to ensure that potential participants did not feel that way in this research. Throughout the entire project, the decisions from disabled people were respected and prioritized. For instance, I had one mother who, though well- intentioned, contacted me saying that she wanted her son to participate in the study. She considered the study to be an opportunity for her son to talk about sexuality with a more “knowledgeable person”. Without hesitation, she then told me that she would “really encourage” her son to participate. While I appreciated her gesture, I respectfully reminded her that it was her son’s decision whether to partake. Her son then opted not to participate and his wish was respected. I followed a similar approach when recruiting through service providers and self- advocacy groups. I wanted to ensure people did not feel pressured to participate because a friend or staff member had encouraged them to do so. I reminded participants that it was their choice whether or not to participate in the study. Recruitment Guidelines To be eligible, participants had to be at least 18 years old, self-identify as having an intellectual disability, have a clear understanding of their legal guardianship status, live in Ontario, and have an interest in sharing their romantic and sexual experiences for the purposes of the research. Although I did not ask participants about their specific disability label to further protect their identities and their privacy, my primary recruitment strategy – through self-advocacy groups and service providers – ensured that people had received a diagnosis of an intellectual disability. It is likely that this project included participants identified with a range of intellectual disability labels, but I am unable to specifically note them. Participants communicated verbally in an interview, understood what the research was about, and gave written informed consent. It was also my goal to address intersectionality. Thus, I sought to recruit a diverse group of participants. Disability studies scholars have emphasized the Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 20 importance of taking an intersectional lens when examining the experiences of disabled people with sexuality and intimacy (Björnsdótti & Rannveig Traustadóttir, 2009; Greenwell & Hough, 2008; Rembis, 2010; O’Toole, 2000, 2015). To achieve this, I used different strategies including sharing information about the study with community-based organizations and social network groups led by other equity-seeking groups while educating myself on different (but still intersecting) social struggles and positive and respectful forms of engagement. My previous research experiences have similarly pointed to the significance of various social categories including gender, sexualities, and religion in shaping participants’ intimate lives (Santinele Martino, 2014, 2019). Interestingly, one of the questions I received from the ethics board was about the need to ask participants about their demographic information. While I understand that researchers should make thoughtful decisions about the types of demographic data they collect, it seemed as though there was an assumption that disability status was the only social location relevant to this social group. As my findings strongly demonstrate, it is crucial to take an intersectional lens to understand the intimate lives of disabled people. For example, the religious background of some participants played a significant role in the sexual fields and intimate partners they privileged (Santinele Martino, under review). After explaining the relevance of collecting demographic information from participants to the ethics board, and making plain to participants that they should share only as much as they felt comfortable doing, I asked participants questions about their social locations using a demographic sheet (appendix M). For this study, I was unable to include sign language users, people using alternative and augmentative communication devices, non-English speakers, individuals who were unclear about their legal guardianship status, and individuals who were not their own legal guardian and whose legal guardian did not authorize their participation. In the case of participants in this study, they were all their own legal guardian. It is important to note how sometimes, due to protectionism and gatekeeping, researchers end up with “the usual suspects”, meaning disabled people “who use traditional forms of communication (i.e., speech), who have been determined to have ‘milder’ disabilities, who may already have research experience or identify as self-advocates” (Santinele Martino & Fudge Schormans, 2018, para. 28). People with intellectual disabilities form a heterogenous group and further research is needed to better understand the array of experiences within this social group. Nevertheless, it is important to note that even the participants in this sample still pointed to significant levels of surveillance, restriction, and isolation in their intimate lives. Those who I was unable to include, and others who are more isolated and have less sexual agency in their lives may experience even more intensified restrictions to their intimate citizenship. Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 21 Ethical Considerations Protection and Rights: Not Mutually Exclusive The process for receiving ethics approval for this project was lengthy, requiring telephone calls, extensive written responses to the ethics board, one-on-one meetings with ethics officers, and a meeting with the full ethics board. This project received ethics approval through three different research ethics boards including the McMaster University Research Ethics Board, the Mohawk College Research Ethics Board, and Family Service Toronto Research Ethics Board. The process of receiving ethics approval can be particularly challenging in research involving people with intellectual disabilities, especially for studies related to sexuality (Iacono, 2006; Santinele Martino & Fudge Schormans, 2018). These challenges can sometimes discourage researchers, especially students who experience time and funding constraints from engaging people with intellectual disabilities (McDonald et al., 2015; Santinele Martino & Fudge Schormans, 2018). In fact, I was highly discouraged by one ethics board from interviewing people with intellectual disabilities who supposedly may not have “given me any good data”. Instead, I was encouraged to pursue interviews with family members and support workers. A significant contribution of this project, however, is precisely that it makes space for people with intellectual disabilities to speak on their own behalf. Having researched the intersection of intellectual disability and sexuality for almost 10 years now, I am well aware of how this area commonly warrants concern from all sides. Some of these concerns are of course well-founded. Yet, there are better ways of dealing with this vulnerability than simply shutting down opportunities for disabled people to share their hopes, perspectives, and experiences around sexuality. Protection should not be used as a silencing tool, one that precludes disabled people from their human right to sexual expression. For some participants, involvement in this research provided a first-time opportunity to speak openly about their romantic and sexual desires and dreams. Many had previously been discouraged, punished, infantilized, and reprimanded when talking about sexuality. This only made my responsibility – especially in terms of not being judgemental – even greater. It was extremely important for me to create a safe(r) space for participants to comfortably share their thoughts. In our conversations, nothing was “abnormal”, “odd” or “taboo”. Furthermore, as a social group which is so commonly infantilized, it was important for me to treat the participants like adults who can understand their rights and choices regarding research participation. It was my job to ensure information was delivered to participants in an accessible manner, such as using consent forms written in an easy-read format. Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 22 Previous studies have consistently noted that participating in research can be a positive experience for people with intellectual disabilities who appreciate having an opportunity to have their voices heard, especially in hopes that their narratives can help make a difference in the lives of other people with intellectual disabilities (Fudge Schormans, 2015; McDonald, Kidney, & Patka, 2013; Nicholson, Colyer, & Cooper, 2013). Also, for some disabled people, participating in studies like mine can be a first-time opportunity to more freely talk with someone about love, sexual desires, and sexual pleasure (Liddiard, 2013). Ethics Procedures At the time of the interview, the consent form (appendix F) was provided to participants to read. I also read the consent forms with participants to ensure that the form was understood. Participants were told at this time that they were not obliged to continue if they felt any uncertainty. Participants were provided a copy for their records. I had the information letters and consent forms available in larger fonts (14-point font size) and ensured that the language in the form could be understood by participants. Participants also had a choice to receive the interview questions in advance. In those cases, I sent the participants a second version of the interview guide written in plain language, with questions numbered, without jargon headings, and in larger font (appendix O). When potential participants responded to the call to participate, I had an introductory conversation with them, an opportunity to talk in-depth about the purpose and nature of the research. I reviewed the research information with interviewees once again at the time of their interviews. This is because previous studies suggest that it can be beneficial to repeat the research information to participants to ensure they understand the research and consent process (Sigstad, 2014; Wennberg & Kjellberg, 2010). I ensured that participants understood what the research was about by asking them “tell-back questions” such as, “Can you tell me what this study is about, in your own words?” and “Can you stop the interview whenever you want?” I also asked participants whether they could sign a consent form and if they were in a guardianship arrangement. All of the participants were their own legal guardian. If people preferred to have a support person, advocate, or interpreter present during the interview, I accommodated these requests and had these individuals sign confidentiality forms (appendix L). A few participants chose to have a support worker with them during the interview, and their desire was respected. Participants were assured that identifying information would not be made available to any member of their community or to their peers. An exception to this would occur if/when participants revealed information about Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 23 illegal activities, such as physical or sexual abuse, which was also explained as part of obtaining informed consent. “Ethically Important Moments” Ethics should certainly go beyond just the mere requirements and approval of the Institutional Review Boards (Blee & Currier, 2011; Ellis, 2009; Librett & Perrone, 2010). Even if researchers follow these procedural guidelines “relational situations will come up in the field and in the interviews that will make their heads spin and their hearts ache” (Ellis, 2009, p. 310). Still, neither the ethics committees nor ourselves can foresee all of the day-to-day ethical issues we will face (Blackman, 2007; Guillemin & Gillam, 2004). This is where the concept of “relational ethics” becomes particularly relevant to research as it requires us “to act from our hearts and minds, to acknowledge our interpersonal bonds to others, and to initiate and maintain conversations” (Ellis, 2009, p. 308). Guillemin and Gillam’s (2004) discussion on “ethics in practice” and “ethically important moments” is particularly relevant (p. 264-265). During my fieldwork, I encountered ethically important moments and I strived to address them to the best of my ability. There were instances in which participants had been misinformed about sexuality and their sexual rights. I cannot say whether that was done intentionally. For instance, one participant asked me if it was true that people in Ontario are not allowed to get married until they are in their 40s. In these moments, I felt responsible for answering those questions as honestly and accurately as I could. It would be unethical for me to knowingly perpetuate misinformation, especially when participants actively sought out answers from me, a person who some saw in some way as an “expert”. My main concern, however, was about how that could potentially cause some tension between participants and other people in their lives. For that reason, I followed up with participants after the interview via brief emails and phone calls just checking on how they were feeling after the interview. All participants reported positive feelings about having had an opportunity to share their perspectives and experiences and, to my knowledge, none of them experienced any conflicts following the interview. A few participants wanted to remain in touch after the interview. Again, considering the social isolation so commonly experienced by disabled people, their desire for connection should not be surprising. There were also a few instances in which participants showed certain romantic or sexual interest toward me. For example, in one instance, when asked about their ideal partner, a participant not-so-subtlety looked at me from head to toe and clearly started describing me. At other times, I received compliments about my appearance or was asked questions about my relationship status. I approached these moments with kindness and respect toward participants while maintaining clear Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 24 professional boundaries. I did not want to cause harm, especially to those whom had just spoken about feeling extremely lonely and having low self-confidence. I also am well aware that other sexualities scholars in disability studies have experienced similar instances (see, for example, Liddiard, 2011) and this was not my first time engaging in this type of research. In a previous study, a couple with intellectual disabilities invited me to join them in a threesome. In some of these instances, a subtle nod to my relationship status was enough to help me assert some boundaries. Certainly, being a man shapes the way these interactions unfolded. For women doing similar research, attempts to assert those boundaries may be challenged by participants (Liddiard, 2011). Finally, it was particularly difficult for me to listen to participants’ experiences with abuse and harassment. It undoubtedly triggered difficult memories for me. I count myself lucky though that I have an incredibly supportive network of friends and colleagues who I could count on for debriefing. I have been lucky to have people around me to whom I could open up and cry. For some participants, however, they had only recently been able to recount their experiences with a specialist and to work through those painful memories. I made to sure to follow up with these participants via phone calls. I feel extremely privileged that participants felt comfortable sharing those experiences with me. Interviews Once I obtained ethics approval, I started conducting my interviews. I used a semi-structured interview guide to elicit responses from participants while also allowing them to bring up information that they found relevant. There is a body of literature addressing best practices for interviewing participants with an intellectual disability (Beail & Williams, 2014). As previous studies have shown some evidence of acquiescence bias amongst people with intellectual disabilities when responding to more directive questions (McVilly et al., 2008), I focused on eliciting narratives as much as possible (Beail & Williams, 2014; Booth & Booth, 1996; McVilly et al., 2008). People with intellectual disabilities may also have a more limited vocabulary and experience some challenges articulating and describing their experiences in detail (Booth & Booth, 1996; Beail & Williams, 2015; Clarke et al., 2005), which does not mean that they cannot share their experiences and perspectives in rich ways. It was also important to remember that people with intellectual disabilities are a heterogeneous group and that different interview approaches may be more suited to different participants (Goodley, 1998). It was important for me to respect participants’ individual preferences. Considering the sensitivity of the research topic, the interviews were conducted in a mutually agreeable location that allowed participants to feel comfortable and safe sharing their experiences. This included places such as public libraries, a Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 25 campus office, local agencies, community centers, and participants’ residences. In the case of participants who chose to be interviewed at their homes, I maintained a “buddy system”, notifying a trustworthy colleague who had certain details of the interview (e.g., name of participant, date, time, expected duration, location), but would only access them if there was a problem. This is a common practice in qualitative research as a way to protect researchers’ safety in projects involving interviews at participants’ own homes. I did not feel unsafe in any of my interviews. I made sure to notify this colleague with a brief telephone call that I had safely completed the interview. I am extremely appreciative of participants who invited me into their homes and generously shared personal items with me such as family photos and letters that further illustrated the depth and meaning of sexuality, love, and intimacy in their lives. It was also important for me to establish rapport with the participants prior to the interview in order for them to feel comfortable sharing information about their personal lives. As Charmaz (2006) notes, “Strong bonds build trust and foster open conversations with research participants about areas ordinarily left unspoken” (p. 112-113). By having a two-step process in which I first talked to potential participants and offered them time to think about their participation, I started building that rapport, clarifying their questions, and allowing them to know me a little bit before we met again for the interview. Furthermore, because some participants had heard about the research through community organizations and self-advocacy groups, that allowed for them to feel safer and more willing to share their experiences. I was particularly touched by one participant who returned a few minutes after her interview had concluded with a letter in hand. The handwritten letter thanked me for being “gentle” and “kind” during the interview. I am extremely grateful for those moments during my fieldwork. Interviews ranged from one to two hours each and were audio recorded with the permission of the participants. Each participant received a $20 gift card in appreciation of his or her time. This amount was suggested by my committee member Dr. Ann Fudge Schormans who has done extensive research with people with intellectual disabilities in Ontario. By providing participants with gift cards, it provides greater flexibility for where they can spend their compensation and avoids potential impacts on disability funding. I explained the research and went through the consent form with participants in accessible language. Once an individual agreed to meet for an interview, they were informed at the time of reviewing the consent form that their participation was voluntary. I told participants that they were not required to answer any questions with which they were uncomfortable and that they could withdraw their consent at any time. I told participants that, following the interview, and any time before the conclusion of the project, they could withdraw from the research without penalty. I provided my name, address, and email Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 26 address on the consent form, a copy of which remained with participants, with a statement inviting participants to contact me at any time with questions or concerns, including withdrawal. No one has withdrawn from their interview or the study. I also completed a short questionnaire asking participants for some basic demographic information. Profile of Participants The combination of a larger sample size as well as a wide eligibility criterion allowed me to access a diverse sample (see Table 1) including both men and women across different ages. Participants ranged from 23 to 64 years old, with an average age of 41. There were more men (n=33) than women (n=13). This may be a result of a larger culture in which men, both disabled and non-disabled, still have more “permission” to talk openly about sexuality. When it comes to women with intellectual disabilities, who are often desexualized and constructed as particularly vulnerable, there may be additional barriers for their participation in research. Additionally, having a man conduct this research may have discouraged some women, as well as gatekeepers in their lives, from feeling comfortable with participating. When asked about their relationship status, more than half of my sample was single (n=25), compared with those in a relationship (n=14), married (n=4), and divorced (n=3). My sample unfortunately lacks some diversity in terms of sexual orientation. Among the participants, most people identified as heterosexual (n=42) compared to heterosexual with prior homosexual experience (n=1), bisexual (n=1), queer (n=1), and being unsure (n=1). This is, of course, disappointing considering how I have been invested in making space for LGBTQ+ disabled people to share their experiences (Santinele Martino, 2017, 2020). Evidence from other studies suggest that LGBTQ+ disabled people tend to experience a “double marginalization”, facing particular challenges due to marginalization both in the disability and queer communities (Santinele Martino, 2017), which may mean that they lack access to a variety of sexual fields. Most of the participants self-identified as cis-gender people (n=44). The sample included one transgender man and one transgender woman. Consistent with other studies, these two participants highlighted how ableism, transphobia, transmisogyny, and other systems of inequality work together to create unequal and extremely violent outcomes in their lives. To date, very few studies have focused on the experiences of trans-identified disabled people. Thus, more attention is needed (Santinele Martino, 2017). This is especially important to avoid erasing trans-identified disabled people and reaffirming compulsory heterosexuality, in addition to opening opportunities for a more diverse array of sexualities and gender identities in disability studies and beyond (Slater & Liddiard, 2018). Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 27 The sample was also mostly White (n=32) compared to other racial groups: Black (n=4), Asian (n=4), Latino (n=3), and mixed (n=3). This is also disappointing because I am well aware of the risks of perpetuating what has been called a “White disability studies” (Bell, 2006; Miles, Nishida, & Forber-Pratt, 2017). Interestingly, participants rarely spoke about their experiences through the lens of race and ethnicity. In fact, some were a bit unsure about how to identify themselves in terms of race and ethnicity. Nonetheless, considering the existing sexualities literature, which provided empirical evidence that shows that racialized social groups are often the target of control of their sexualities (e.g., Hill Collins, 2005; Fields, 2005), as well as disability studies literature showing how disability and race have been entangled throughout history as a way to justify forms of inequality (Bayton, 2001, 2005; Dolmage, 2018), future studies should examine the intersections of intellectual disability, sexuality, and race. Finally, in terms of schooling, most participants had had some school experience ranging from elementary school up until grade 12 (n=35), while a few reported having had some experience in college or university (n=11), mostly by taking a specific course. When it came to employment, participants reported being unemployed (n=18), working on a part-time basis (n=18), working on a full-time basis (n=9), and being retired (n=1). It is important to highlight how 78 percent of participants were, in essence, living in a precarious position due to unemployment or underemployment. This precarity affects the ability of disabled people to accumulate economic capital and maintain intimate lives. Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 28 Table 1: Demographic Profile of Participants Pseudonym Age Gender Sexual Orientation Relationship Status Race Religion Education Employment Housing Arrangement Amanda 44 Woman Heterosexual Married White Catholic Grade 12 Unemployed Living with Partner Bruce 61 Man Heterosexual Married White Catholic Grade 12 Part-Time Living with Partner Raul 52 Man Mostly Heterosexual Common Law White None Some college Unemployed Living with Partner Iago 39 Man Heterosexual Single White None Grade 12 Part-Time Living with Family Jenny 40 Woman Heterosexual In a Relationship White None Grade 12 Unpaid Work Living with Family Mary 24 Woman Heterosexual Single White Christian College Part-Time Group Home Aaron 42 Man Heterosexual Separated White Christian College Unemployed Group Home Joshua 50 Man Unsure Single White None Some college Temp Jobs Group Home Daniel 34 Man Heterosexual Single White Catholic Grade 12 Part-Time Independently Nathan 61 Man Heterosexual Divorced White Agnostic / Atheist Diploma Unemployed Independently Wendy 28 Woman Queer In a Relationship Mixed None Some college Unemployed Living with Partner Ethan 41 Man Heterosexual Single White None Grade 4 Unemployed Group Home Gerald 49 Man Heterosexual In a Relationship Latino Catholic Grade 12 Part-Time Group Home Alejandro 42 Man Heterosexual In a Relationship Latino Catholic Grade 12 Unemployed Group Home Jared 28 Man Heterosexual Single White Secular Judaism Bachelors Part-Time Independently Walter 33 Man Heterosexual Single White None Unclear Full-Time Independently Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 29 Clayton 34 Man Bisexual In a Relationship Mixed Catholic / Pagan High School Part-Time Independently Isabella 23 Woman Heterosexual In a Relationship Black None College Part-Time Group Home Nelson 30 Man Heterosexual Single Latino Christian Some college Full-Time Independently Jack 53 Man Heterosexual Single White None Grade 12 Unemployed Group home Amy 61 Woman Heterosexual In a Relationship White Protestant Grade 10 Retired Group home Jacob 55 Man Heterosexual Single White Catholic Grade 1 Full-Time Independently Julio 31 Man Heterosexual Single Black None University Part-Time Independently Charlotte 51 Woman Heterosexual Married White Christian University Full-Time Living with Partner Christopher 39 Man Heterosexual Single White None High School Part-Time Independently Patrick 39 Man Heterosexual Single Southeast Asian Catholic High School Part-Time Living with Family Charlie 41 Man Heterosexual Single White Catholic High School Unemployed Group Home Amelia 45 Woman Heterosexual Single White Catholic High School Part-Time Living with Family Leonard 40 Man Heterosexual Single White Anglican Church High School Full-Time Living with Family Joseph 37 Man Heterosexual Single White Catholic High School Unemployed Group Home Albert 44 Man Heterosexual In a Relationship Asian Church High School Unemployed Living with Family Bryan 36 Man Heterosexual Single Black United Church High School Part-Time Living with Family Tatianna 45 Woman Heterosexual Single White Catholic High School Part-Time Group Home Emerich 39 Man Heterosexual In a Relationship White None High School Part-Time Living with Family Ross 38 Man Heterosexual In a Relationship White None High School Part-Time Living with Family Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 30 Hector 40 Man Heterosexual Single Black Church Elementary School Part-Time Living with Family Carl 51 Man Heterosexual Single White None Unsure Unemployed Group Home Carolyn 64 Woman Heterosexual In a Relationship White Christian Middle School Unemployed Group Home Grace 38 Woman Heterosexual In a Relationship Asian Catholic High School Part-Time Living with Family Ryan 36 Man Heterosexual Single White Buddhism High School Part-Time Living with Family Arthur 34 Man Heterosexual Single White Catholic High School Unemployed Assisted Living Keith 24 Man Heterosexual Single White None High School Unemployed Assisted Living Chelsea 60 Woman Heterosexual Divorced White Catholic High School Unemployed Assisted Living Liam 46 Man Heterosexual In a Relationship Asian None High School Unemployed Assisted Living Scott 34 Trans Man Heterosexual Single Mixed None High School Part-Time Group Home Virginia 31 Trans Woman Heterosexual In a Relationship White None High School Part-Time Group Home Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 31 Analysis of Interview Data I followed a multi-step analytical process, starting with broad codes and then constructing categories and themes (Aurini, Heath, & Howells, 2016). Interviews were transcribed verbatim by me and a professional transcriptionist (who signed an oath of confidentiality, appendix L), and included a great level of detail, including pauses, laughter, and repetitions to capture contextualized representations of the interviews (Bloomberg & Volpe, 2012). While I recognize the benefits behind transcribing one’s own interviews (see, for example, Bird, 2005), considering the number of interviews and time constraints, I opted for a combination. I assigned identification codes to the transcripts as soon as each was completed. Additionally, I kept notes of my observations of locations where I conducted interviews (e.g., group homes, day programs), interactions with participants, self-advocates, agency workers, and family members, as well as post-interview reflections. I examined the data from a structuralist-constructivist framework by using a thematic analysis. After transcribing interviews, I read the transcripts multiple times while listening to the audio recordings, keeping notes on preliminary themes. I used ATLAS.ti 8, a qualitative analysis software to store and conduct the formal coding of my interview transcripts and field notes. Initially, I conducted open coding (Corbin & Strauss, 2008), which generated an initial list of broad codes such as lack of privacy, infantilization, economic capital, and loneliness. Through a “line-by-line” coding, my coding was comprehensive, meaning that all parts were assigned a code or sometimes even more (Charmaz, 2008, p. 155). I then conducted “axial coding” (Charmaz, 2006), which involves identifying relationships between codes that emerged in the open coding process. Finally, I conducted a thematic analysis of the data (Aurini et al., 2016; Braun & Clarke, 2006). The coding process was both “theory driven”, approaching the data with certain questions and a theoretical framework in mind, as well as “data driven” with codes “depend[ing] on the data” itself (Braun & Clarke, 2006, p. 18). The sexual fields literature drew my attention to themes such as a lack of access to sexual fields, sexual capital, erotic habitus, and gender habitus. I reread the transcripts at different points in the writing process to ensure that my writing reflected participants’ contextualized accounts. As Kvale (1996) importantly notes, it should not be assumed that research generates “knowledge claims that are so powerful and convincing in their own right [that] they […] carry the validation with them, like a strong piece of art” (p. 252). It is important to maintain some criteria in terms of evaluating qualitative research (Guba & Lincoln, 1994). Ballinger (2006) recommends four main “considerations” for qualitative research scholars. Firstly, “coherence”, meaning Ph.D. Thesis – A. Santinele Martino; McMaster University - Sociology 32 that choices in terms of the research purpose, research methods, and the role played by the researcher should be coherent (p. 240-241). Secondly, a “systematic and careful research conduct”, which involves sharing evidence that the researcher seriously considered in every step of the research process, including recruitment, interviewing, and participants’ representation (p. 241). Thirdly, a “convincing and relevant interpretation” of the research data, meaning that the researcher should provide a “credible and compelling” story of their data, such as by backing interpretations through relevant theoretical frameworks (p. 242). Finally, reflexivity and the ways that the researcher has shaped the research process and results should also be clearly acknowledged. In writing this dissertation, I took these considerations to heart with the intention of producing a coherent, thoughtful, convincing, and reflexive contribution to the literature. Advantages and Limitations of This Study With a few exceptions, little research has examined the romantic and sexual experiences of people with intellectual disabilities in more restrictive institutional and social settings (Fish, 2016; Rogers, 2016). For example, Löfgren-Mårtenson (2004) conducted participant observations at dances organized for young people with intellectual disabilities in Sweden, finding ways in which parents and staff controlled the sexualities of disabled people as well as how disabled people coped with those challenges. Another study in England used an ethnographic approach to explore the sexualities of women with intellectual disabilities in a secure unit, finding various restrictions to their intimate lives (Fish, 2016). Considering the well-documented social isolation, restrictions, and surveillance experienced by many people with intellectual disabilities (Feely, 2016), an ethnographic approach to studying sexual fields occupied by people with intellectual disabilities is very difficult, especially for a graduate student. In Ontario, especially, there are significant levels of gatekeeping, particularly when it comes to sexuality. In our province, the opportunities that exist are most commonly created by developmental services. Furthermore, an ethnographic approach focused on particular sexual sites may not appropriately capture the experiences of some people with intellectual disabilities who may not have access to sexual fields. I also recognize that the metropolitan focus of my sample is a limit